Healing and Finding Myself
We are honored to share this beautiful guest blog post by Veronica. Veronica is a Registered Yoga Teacher and Reiki Healing Practitioner who is here to share her healing story.
I’m the oldest out of five children. I always had nurturing abilities. Growing up while my parents worked full time, I took care of my younger siblings. It was my duty to keep them safe. Most of my life I felt like I had to make others happy and so I always put myself last. I wanted to make sure that everyone was happy before I was happy. I never took the time to really focus on my own needs and my own happiness. I was always afraid of opinions and judgments. I was afraid to fail so I always walked away before I even started.
My whole life has been a struggle with trying to figure out what I want to do with myself. I switched my career major so many times, I lost count. I pursued a degree in medical administration while I figured out my real passion.
I believe we all have our story and we should share these stories to help others.
In June of 2016, my life changed. I dealt with a skin conditions for four months while planning a wedding, going through financial difficulties and dealing with family stress. I wanted to save everyone, and I couldn’t even save myself. I had a rash outbreak all over my body from head to toes. It started with an itchy scalp and from there I began to have itchy hand and palms. I was itchy and red all over my body. I was under the care of an allergist and a dermatologist. The doctors ran many blood tests on me. They checked for certain disease and conditions. They also checked my organ function. After many doctor visits, my results came out that everything was normal.
At this point the doctors didn’t know what could possibly be wrong with me. I had no idea what to do and what my next steps were, but I knew I had to change something. I had to really put some thought into my condition and what could possibly be triggering all my skin outbreaks. I knew whatever it was, I would have to face it sooner or later. I become eager to figure out what could be causing my skin condition.
I knew as a child I had suffered from Eczema however I never had it like this. I know in due time our body changes and may react a little different. However, I still wasn’t confident enough to say I just had a bad case of Eczema. I felt deep inside there was more to it, and I just had to search deeper.
When the doctors couldn’t give me an answer about my condition, I was convinced that it was stress related. I began seeking a Reiki Practitioner.
I’ve been seeing a Reiki Practitioner a little over a year now. She has been my guide through my spiritual journey. If you don’t know what Reiki is, let me explain. Reiki is a healing technique based on the principle that the practitioner can channel energy into the client by means of touch to activate the natural healing process of the body and restore physical and emotional wellbeing. Reiki is a spiritual healing art that originated in Japan. The word Reiki comes from the Japanese word (Rei) which means “Universal life” and (Ki) which means “Energy.”
This practice is not a part of any particular religion. Reiki is not based on belief. It’s a subtle and effective form of energy work using spiritually guided life force energy. Reiki is the life energy that flows through all living things. Reiki Practitioners understand that we all have the ability to connect with our own healing energy and use it to strengthen energy in our self and help others. It is believed that a person's “ki” or energy should be strong and free flowing. When this is true, a person’s body and mind is in a positive state of health. When the energy becomes weak or blocked, it could lead to symptoms of physical or emotional imbalance. With that being said, I was the person that was emotionally imbalanced and my energy was blocked.
I was unable to make life decisions. I left weak and emotionally drained. I cried almost every day feeling sorry for myself and dwelling on the past. I was stuck on what could’ve been instead of focusing on the now. I put so much energy into the negative things that I didn’t process the positive things.
I continued my reiki healing sessions. After my third session, I began to feel lighter. I felt more creative and motivated. Today, I have discovered another side of me. While I was fighting my skin condition, I feel I was being redirected into my life purpose. God healed me from the inside out. God was working on me to bring out my healing abilities. There will be people who won’t ever understand your journey and that’s okay. Some things are not meant to be understood.
I was put on this earth to be a teacher and to provide spiritual guidance to others. My mission is not to make the world a better place; it is to help make people feel better. If we all learn the process of life maybe someday the world will become a better place.
Doreen Virtue stated, “Those with a spiritual meaning career are sent as Earth angels who send healing thoughts and energy into Earth’s body and atmosphere undo the harmful effects of pollutants and negativity.”
I feel my mission in life is to service people and to be their spiritual guide. We are all here for a reason and we all have special gifts. We just need to stop resisting and start accepting.
In August of 2016 while fighting my skin condition, I found out I was pregnant. This was a hard experience for me because I wanted to be a mother, but due to my circumstances, I had to make a difficult decision. I didn’t even know I was pregnant initially.
I didn’t want to have an abortion but that’s what felt right at that moment in my life. This decision changed my life forever. At this point in my life I had to heal through my emotions. I was always so connected to my emotions that I could easily be overwhelmed by them. This was my push to really get my sh*t together.
I once heard that the Universe will push you if you don’t do it yourself. Today, I am still working on myself and working to help others on their spiritual journey. I awaken a new love for myself. I choose to connect to my womb. I continue to be creative and find my Purpose.
I found this quote that I really like, and I think this is what I need to focus on this year:
‘’Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it."
About the Author~
Veronica is a Healthcare Administrative Assistant and lives in Long Island, NY with her high school sweetheart. She is a Registered Yoga Teacher (RYT-200) and loves teaching yoga to her community. She hopes to soon transition to teaching yoga full-time. Veronica is a guest blog writer for GoddessCeremony.com
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