Weaving Who You Were and Who You Are Becoming
This is a subject close to my heart, because when I learned of the sacred wisdom around me and began implementing it, I was faced with a difficult position; do I continue being my "regular" self around family members, co-workers and friends? What will they think of me? Will they think i've gone crazy?
And this is a space that many women on any sort of spiritual, transformational journey will find. At what point do we let go of the woman we once were?
I made a pretty full as opposite as you can get transition when I quit my corporate job in the security field (yeah...) and switched to becoming a goddess sprinkling empowerment and love onto women around the world.
I also stood in that spot where you are staring at the woman you are blooming into and the woman you once were and having a difficult time choosing who you should be today.
For a while, I tried to be my "regular" self around family members. It seemed easier than trying to explain that I had actually quit my corporate job and was actually going to go travel the world and live out of a backpack and "find myself." Instead, I just tried to remain the way I had always been, small and unnoticed.
But as many of us know, this can only go on for so long.
Eventually trying to be two people is exhausting.
There came a point when it had become very clear that I had to pick the old me or the woman who was standing here proudly. Do I pick the old routines, the old partners, the old behaviors? Of course there were many beautiful things about this woman too, but it was no longer my time to embody them. Now I had the opportunity to pick the new path. A path that held consciousness, forgiveness, love and community.
"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
- Anais Nin
Beginning to live in a way that inspires you does not have to take away from who you once were. Rather, it builds upon the incredible being that you are and reflects more of the positive, healing nature within you.
Living in a way that expresses your divine light and callings is needed by the world.
In the grand scheme of things, it does not matter if your aunt thinks you went off the deep end because you love meditation and tarot cards. There will always be someone who doesn't understand.
But these people should not be the reason that you do not fully bloom and take flight.
Life is too short to wait for the opportune moment, because most likely it will never come.
Leaping up at the first glimpse of sunshine is the way to live authentically. Living in a way that blazes your heart is the way to live fully.
If you are struggling to bridge the two women - who you were and who you are becoming - bring love. Respect and love the woman who came before you, who worked so hard to be here, who went through hard situations but made it through. Thank her, respect her, celebrate her.
You'll then be ready to begin to embody the woman waiting within.
Following your intuition and where you feel you are being guided is the most important part of any of this. Follow where you know you are meant to be and all else will align.
It always does.